15th march 2009-

well i do love my 15th march each month. im always be the one who is eager to look forward to it. but most of the time, you were the one who frgt them. until now, i can remember when was the best of 15th in my life. i counted to our 14th months. wow, i made a new record for being very loyal and the longest relationship i ever been in it. and the longest distance we have been apart for a year and longer. well i never get sick to call you late nites, in the morning, texting you each second, being there for you. i gave you my all trust, never thought you would repay me this way. i remembered, so many times ive said, i dont want your money, or anythng, just be my one and dont stop loving me. but i had hurt myself deeply, because you and me have been promising a lot, and thats what it hurts so bad. its not your fault you went there and met her. i believe in fate, and i believe in Allah. i knew what i had to do that time, but you stopped me just like i wanted you to do so. but that was not a right thing to do. i realised im supposed to let you go at that moment. not keep on sticking my heart back into what it should be. you cant help yourself and even i cant help our relationship? i know you do work for it, but i think our effort is not enough. i dont blame you for cheating, i dont keep on any revenge. what i did on the 15th march 2010 with afiq, i didnt intend too. but he loves me. just like you do. but i cant help myself lying through my teeth. i still love you, its true. to afiq, im sorry. always we often look at the closed doors regretly, but we dont realise there are doors opened for me from each ways. im grateful cause i have my friends. and also im grateful that you came into my life. you changed me. we shared a lot. im sorry i broke my promises, but you did too. we fair now danny. you been my sweetest past. even now you still here with me, im sorry. my feelings are just not so strong just like we were when we first knew. i hope im still the same as the old me.i love you for yourself. and always been.